Weblog and Worktable for Match Tical of EaestheticS.com a Parnter of EQHosting and an Affiliate of EQNetworks

It was really nice last night getting down with most of the OG members of the NB. i had been feeling a little weak in the team work department but everyone fell back into position as if the we had never left. I suppose i had forgotten my ability to lead and be strong for myself and others. Seeing the roster list always gives me an ego boost. go over to narcoticbrotherhood.com if you think you would like to be apart of the team. but remember that this list is filled with people who can handle theirs.

ive had a great deal of things going on in my life an especially my mind. Forgive me from being a little distracted when it comes to updating the worklog. sometimes it loses priority to actual work.
“Dont talk about it. Be about it.”
Still trying to stick to that like glue but its hard when My mind is everywhere and nowhere.

meh… relationships are complicated. especially those with distance involved. ive been working to create the web empire and all that. still breathing life into EaS and doing paid work on the side all while working that furniture moving dayjob. i still skate atleast 3 or 4 times a week even if its only an hour or two. there is a decent skatepark next to my house so thas niiice. that plus the job is keeping me pretty fit. things come in an out of focus like why im actually here and relationship stuff with my family and others. it all seems like such a big mess when you try to assemble all the pieces of the puzzle but i guess life is like that riight? im not trying to say anything is wrong or bad its just the purpose eludes me. and the idea of not finding one means these 2 years have been one big fat waste. especially if i have nothing to show for it.

its been a bit since ive made it to the box office. now i has reason!

Yeah. i know i have. so what. i kind of lost the motivation because i was supposed to be somewhere else right now and it still has an effect i guess… Just reformatted the whole set up and im very pleased with all of the new equipment. ill be back on that soon like right after i get ahold of eddie. She was interested in taking over the editor position of the Information project but im still not completely finished with the hierarchy. ill just keep riding the creative train until i run it off the tracks i guess. so anyway. here is the usual ;D

look i know the economy is hurting right now, and its an absolute shame that its come to this to bring me comment on the subject but… THERE IS NOTICEABLY LESS FILLING IN MY SMORES POPTARTS!!! …FFS!!!

photo courtesy of some random Flikr account. <3 <3 <3

Seems like this day only holds happiness for a few. Last year was almost the same only with alot less to think about.  Im trying not to think about it as much as i feel about it. so heres to love i guess… just wanted you to know

and on that note im going to get back to work on all the things that will eventually bring me closer to you.  i know this post is silghtly emo but if you cross it with nerdy its nemo.

It all comes back as vivid as before. Ive been burning the candle at both ends as of late but i suppose its better than the alternative. INTERWEB REJECTION really cheers me up for some reason. i just wish i had some sort of dick filter. so on that note ill get back to work.  I want to have something to show for it all besides wasted time feeling sad and sorry for myself. ;D  So come chat with me sometime.

Im installing a new version of ILLustrator right now so expect my work to get a little more detailed and vibrant in the next week or so. ive got the EaS site to break down and re professionalize. Also the IP is going to open with a new Coordinator in a few days so stay tuned. Ill be updating on all fronts so lets see if i can wrap it all together by the end of next week.