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Its been a little harder to find the time to wrap up all the projects with this new thing ive got going but i feel great! Any work ive been doing has been feeling really solid and fresh. Feeling renewed and energized with my mind free to fly around the room. I’ve been wrapping up these loose ends and retouching and finishing sold over-due projects. SOOO HARDDD to get ahold of Rich because he stays up LATE compared to me like im some fucking old man or something. Anyways the flow is good and i have been on a regular training schedule with some goals in mind! Also ive had some support with a few layout issues i had been struggling with. Im almost fully armed for the shop to be fully open again. setting it up has taken a bit longer because ive been riding this incredible wave over the last week or so. Just started with a few Plan-makings & Pipe-dreamings

Sometimes the signal can catch a little interference on its way to the recievers… Not completely sure about the outcome yet i just know im in need of some connection + comfort. I was feeling a bit unsure with noone to steady me. Usually another participant isnt required but i guess as of late ive grown a little dependent on other party’s to feel through the issues that are eluding me. So heres to working on the projects that require my attention. A little work to submerge myself in can do some good every once in a while. I really wish i could just Phone up MJ for some introspective but me and her havent been seeing each other or even talking lately. I bring them to the light for you…. its only right.

Life can be so crazy. And i dont mean crazy like that time i tazed myself in the face thinking it was my cellphone. I mean the type of crazy that changes the way light enters your eyeballs. You might have caught a glimpse of that kinda light before. It could be bouncing off of something shiny. Or be blasting out of the eyes of MECHA GODZILLA.

Regardless of how it hits you it has the power to flip shit upside down. To the effect of some sort of government conspiracy. Some CIA alien Binural-Brainwave emitter has pierced the sky and scrambled the brain of your closest ally. This sounds sort of scarey when you say it like that but its made me the happiest NERD in the WORLD. It kind of seemed like nothing in that world was going to change but i guess i wasnt hearing the universe like i should have been. oh well. Now here is a slice directly from the same source. i hope you enjoy it like i do.

ive had a great deal of things going on in my life an especially my mind. Forgive me from being a little distracted when it comes to updating the worklog. sometimes it loses priority to actual work.
“Dont talk about it. Be about it.”
Still trying to stick to that like glue but its hard when My mind is everywhere and nowhere.

meh… relationships are complicated. especially those with distance involved. ive been working to create the web empire and all that. still breathing life into EaS and doing paid work on the side all while working that furniture moving dayjob. i still skate atleast 3 or 4 times a week even if its only an hour or two. there is a decent skatepark next to my house so thas niiice. that plus the job is keeping me pretty fit. things come in an out of focus like why im actually here and relationship stuff with my family and others. it all seems like such a big mess when you try to assemble all the pieces of the puzzle but i guess life is like that riight? im not trying to say anything is wrong or bad its just the purpose eludes me. and the idea of not finding one means these 2 years have been one big fat waste. especially if i have nothing to show for it.

Seems like this day only holds happiness for a few. Last year was almost the same only with alot less to think about.  Im trying not to think about it as much as i feel about it. so heres to love i guess… just wanted you to know

and on that note im going to get back to work on all the things that will eventually bring me closer to you.  i know this post is silghtly emo but if you cross it with nerdy its nemo.

It all comes back as vivid as before. Ive been burning the candle at both ends as of late but i suppose its better than the alternative. INTERWEB REJECTION really cheers me up for some reason. i just wish i had some sort of dick filter. so on that note ill get back to work.  I want to have something to show for it all besides wasted time feeling sad and sorry for myself. ;D  So come chat with me sometime.

The clouds lift on the winter sky to reveal thousands of shiny diamonds. Each star radiates and sparkles with the light traveling all those light years to reach me. Yet as beautiful and infinite as it may be my only thoughts are of sharing that sky with you.

Moving through all of the work on my table has been quite the task. Its nice to see the time and energy i spend come back in the form of cash! Mostly i really wish i had time to work on all of the personal projects. Like the ones for my loved ones. The list has moved past a page and keeps getting longer. Priorities in my life have most definetley been changing but really i think its for the better. I have been living outside of my life for exactly 2 years on the 18th which also happens to be Pinky’s Birthday! So mostly im working towards rebuilding the life i dream about with those people who mean the most to me… i was kinda depressed for a bit but its important to remember to be strong for those people depending on you.

A post was skipped because of my over excitement for the 20X trip to jamaica come next February. I have been assembling playlists and preparing all the necessary for what will probably be the most amazing Caribbean adventure with the love of my life. All i can see is Sun, Surf, Drinks, and Spliffs of ginormous proportions.  I went into the future and grabbed this photo of me from myself who didnt seemed surprised i was stealing it. Look how fucking Tan i am!So i even made a little imeem upload of some of the tasty riddims that will be bumping on the box down by the beach BOYEE!! I CANT WAIT AHHHHHH!